100 books Part 2

I realize I'm not going to be able to come up with 100 books. Which is sad, since I love to read. I'm really trying to focus on reading books that will inspire me, change me and challenge me. So hopefully every month, I'll find another book or 2 to add to the list.

I also wanted to figure out why these books stood out. Some (like And the Shofar Blew) was because it challenged me, others (like Alphabet City) was just because I liked the book. The Westing Game was because it was a book Jon and I read together, Spiritual Midwifery because it is a great resource book. Some just because they are easy reads (Debbie Macomber), some because it makes me laugh (Monk), and some because it makes me cry (A Child Called It).

I realized it's that way about life. There are some people in my life who are there because they inspire me, change me, and challenge me...there are some people in my life because of something we shared in the past, some because they are quirky and make me laugh, some because I can just be me around them, some because they make time go by faster and more enjoyable, some that make me laugh and some that make me cry.

As I cleaned out our bookshelf last week, some books were easy to toss in the sell pile, some I had to think more about, and others I knew I could never get rid of and would keep forever. Some I kept because I knew the kids liked theme ven though I didn't understand why. Some I kept because they seemed important event hough I didn't necessarily like them.

I know this though process is part of getting past my hump and conqureing my PPD. I have to do the same with feelings and my actions. I have to figure out what I can get rid of because it doesn't matter and what will continue to challenge me to be a better person and what I need to hang on to because it's imporant to others.

PPD is rough, it's a struggle and one I would rather not have. IT doesn't help that backpain occassionally is so bad that doing things other than sitting, brings me to tears. So days like today are rough, but comforting that I can grab a good book or email a good friend and get a lil bit of encouragement